i want everything to go back to the way we were
if only i could really rewind the time
and relive the past again
how great it would be
but back to reality haiz
what is done is already done
there isnt anything i can do about it
i been questioning myself time and time again
whether are the decisions i made wise or not
whether had i really done the right things
whether had i really said the right things
at the right time at the right place
somehow and sometimes
i am rather at a loss of what to do
i am unsure of what the next step i gonna take
or what the next step will lead things or me to
will my next step or decision
make things better or make it worse ?
i dont know.
thinking it so many times through
i still cant get the answer
why ?
i am questioning and doubting myself
ever since that incident
have i taken the wrong step back then ?
thats why everything turns out the way it is now ?
am i really making things worse ?
making decisions is one of the hardest thing to do
whether is it correct or incorrect
either way there will be hurt and disappointment
either way there will be regrets and resentment
its tough to choose and make a right decision
which could have the best of both worlds
each and every one of us is struggling within ourselves i am sure
if i had a choice to turn back the time
and choose my actions all over again
i would hide the truth from you
i would rather you not know the truth at all
i should had just kept my mouth shut back then
so that you wouldnt be so deeply affected by it
i really hate myself for making that unwise decision
hate myself for making you so miserable
hate myself for making the wrong decision back then
hate myself for telling you the truth
hate myself for making you the way you are right now
really regret my decision back then
feeling really horrible inside
whenever i think back
whenever i thought of the scene
that day that room that conversation
its really weigh heavily on my heart
the words that were spoken that night
it left a deep scar
unbearable pain and hurt
something that will follow us
even after a long while
it not gonna go away i know
its still hurting me up to this point
i feel so tired of it somehow
so tired of keeping up the pretence
thats everything is fine
when its not at all
i am sorry
i feel like giving up already
though i know i shouldnt be so irresponsible
we all need a little time alone to ourselves
to think things through
to let go of everything
the hurt the pain the disappointment
if only that could be easily let go of
how great it would be
